Life as we call it, has its own unique sense of extremes. Life is vain, well most of the time. Funny thing is you have it inside of you, and somehow everyday you wake up, you get a chance to tread above the ground. We all go through different experiences, and at times we cannot make head or tail of whatever is going on. But the days progress, and life continues to move on as if to mock us.
There are times when you feel you are in control of every small fabric of detail in your life. The times we feel the energy within us multiply and explode like a grenade. Then you get that warm, fuzzy and certain feeling that you can accomplish all things. You can fight all wars. You can save the world :-)
Other times, the grim reality of life gives you an unexpected slap across your face. Times like these, we get to see the other side of the coin. Death could creep up on those we hold close to our hearts. Maybe that trust we have on something or someone comes crushing down, and you feel the dense weight of the world on your shoulders. At times it could be a failure in something you had gazed your hopes and dreams upon - When all guns are blazing, the engines are revving and our hearts palpitating with flashing bright ligths.
Doof!
You fall with a thud. Words that you are so comfortable with elude your lips. Ominous clouds of darkness suddenly creep up above your head. It could be family strife. You know family is the only real thing we have, and sad thing is only some of us are aware of that. Those deep things that you just don't want anyone to know. Not because you are embarrassed by them, but by the mere fact that people would remind you of your aching situation. I am going through one of those right now. It gives me great heart ache. At times you are forced to keep a straight face so that everything seems as if it is okay. You partially lie to yourself that its all good - But who knows? You cross your fingers, at times you pray. At times you want to shed tears even or go to the top of the Alps and JUMP.
We do not know about our future. We only have right now. The present is the only gift we have right now that we could open tomorrow. I honestly will not lie that I have all the answers about life or where the hell we are meant to get our directions from. But it is in such difficult moments that we have to be patient. We have to get out of our situations and look around. We have to go to that place where we can get some closure, where we get to ignore external stimuli and peruse deep within our skins.
I will tell you what I have found out. It is the simple things in life. It is the soft breeze sweeping across our cheeks. It is the sky, azure with its invigorating colours, the sun and the night sky. For me, it will continue to be nature. It will continue to be the good times we have had and the smiles that are drawn by you. It will continue to be those treasured fulfilling conversations. It will be the music - The pounding electronic beats, Coldplay re-inventing the rock, Nodding hip-hop beats and stringing out those lyrics with venom. And I will continue to write about it because times like these are my closure. I will continue to be a realist. I will keep my head where it is meant to be.
One thing is for sure. I will continue to appreciate all that is around me, and I will not give up. Whatever it takes, I will keep my head up. I am not sure how it will all play out one day, when I have some white beard, rocking on my arm chair, enjoying the wonderful smell and sensuality of my environment but I will do my very best now - I will - I will celebrate life in all its moments.
I will go hard.
I got you :-)
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
Monday, May 9, 2011
Another 1
Rain with a soft patter,
The earth red and expectant,
Life is a slow snail,
Progress is gradual,
One hand vanity,
The other proceed. progress.
The money, the honeys,
protruding rooftops, big building blocks,
massive mansions, petty pensions,
friendly fiends, new fashion trends,
real niggas, fast cars,
cool demeanor, clubs on the minor,
friends and foes, ranches with hoes,
the glory and the pain,
fresh and clean, nasty incessant stain,
The secret, and the pretense,
fealthy rich, children to teach,
hearty hardworking, vanity consuming,
lucky escapes, grizzly deaths,
chilling escapades, glasses on the spades,
fat getting fatter, thin never better,
forced into a box, our eyes with padlocks,
keys open doors, ignoring status quos,
public enemy, rebel with a cause,
waking up, sliding down,
green grasslands, deserted deserts,
frying pans, juakali stands,
expensive malls, kiosks and shops,
religion fighting,
love with wrong timing,
sizzling syringes, sweet indulgences,
bright tall walls, shanties and stalls,
eluding hopes, steps on ropes,
classic thought,
just another note :-)
The earth red and expectant,
Life is a slow snail,
Progress is gradual,
One hand vanity,
The other proceed. progress.
The money, the honeys,
protruding rooftops, big building blocks,
massive mansions, petty pensions,
friendly fiends, new fashion trends,
real niggas, fast cars,
cool demeanor, clubs on the minor,
friends and foes, ranches with hoes,
the glory and the pain,
fresh and clean, nasty incessant stain,
The secret, and the pretense,
fealthy rich, children to teach,
hearty hardworking, vanity consuming,
lucky escapes, grizzly deaths,
chilling escapades, glasses on the spades,
fat getting fatter, thin never better,
forced into a box, our eyes with padlocks,
keys open doors, ignoring status quos,
public enemy, rebel with a cause,
waking up, sliding down,
green grasslands, deserted deserts,
frying pans, juakali stands,
expensive malls, kiosks and shops,
religion fighting,
love with wrong timing,
sizzling syringes, sweet indulgences,
bright tall walls, shanties and stalls,
eluding hopes, steps on ropes,
classic thought,
just another note :-)