I sit and ponder. I am all alone in this room. The ipod is on shuffle and at this moment there is some soft house music playing in the distant background. The walls seem bigger today, and I feel as if there is more to aspire for - Considering especially the tall roof. I think I am grasping the hush gradually now. I think I have limited myself, sort of. Hard to believe, but I think that's usually the chief cause of monotony, which I have been feeling quite a bit of late. Limiting myself in terms of dreams and aspirations. At times we do that - we limit our thoughts towards only one direction and we fail to reach the unthinkable because of that. We haven't usually thought that far.
It sounds very ungrounded but let's get it right. I have always thought big. I actually have a t-shirt on with "the next big thing" splashed on the front - And you can bet on that entandre {I think my ego is too big at times - I think it makes up for some things}. Anyway, I was saying - I have been feeling stagnant of late and so I have gotten this imaginary detective spectacles to solve that mystery. One of the easiest ways I have found to solve this problem in the past has been to go somewhere I can do some self - reflection. Last weekend I had some of that, although accompanied by a bunch of very interesting peoples to fourteen falls - true to the word there was a lot of falling and swimming, see some comments for further details.
Just read a quote "You should travel to somewhere new at least once a year". New places seem to have this voice that almost challenges you to be adventurous and try out something different. But also, more often than not, we go to these places with our friends. That is my point. Being around people reminds you of being simply human. Around other people, you get to be stupid and silly, you get to have the most stimulating intellectual conversations and you get to learn different characters, moods and personalities. So I am pledging to be more human for the next few weeks. In that respect I will:
- Take a trip to shagz (rural area) and bond with the older folk - Also to have some peace and clean, pure oxygen.
- Listen to people on a deeper level, resonate with them a bit more. Really working on that because at times its usually very easy for me to hum some tunes when talking to some people. I am not perfect.
- Breathe deeply, and think good thoughts.
- Take daily sabbaticals - Spend a few minutes each day to come up with a daily mantra of sorts. Something small that I will be pondering each day to give myself some renewed focus (Today's was on "learning to say no gracefully").
